I wanted to draw you out
lure you out
with opulent riches
to lay you down
when we heard the pistol reports
my fingerprints on all the shells
in your chest
the blood came out
I knew I was
to such evil
when I abandoned
Were we grief stricken?
Or cackling in delight
When our enemies received their dues.
To grab their horrified faces
and shove them underneath the bathtub water
and their thrashing signals life
until the bubbles rise to the surface
and the water is placid
Would you cast me out like Cain?
Curse me with a mark?
Make me wander forever?
Have I silenced my conscious?
rendering it inert?
an amalgamating cancerous ink blot
metastasizing to the rest of the body