a leviathan is on my heels      but I don't care anyways       I don't care anyways           and even if they whisper I won't hear             even if I cork this bottle          to prevent this all from spilling        it wouldn't matter anyways       I'd see the smoke cloud my eyes       and…

         I could just drown in my existence          too fatal to tell        words borrowed without a basis       an unkind, unbroken saddle          in the middle of the field       and these incantations are just starting       furthering me out        withering me out      i kept watch to see no boat      they…

  I didn't really want to drag you back                  even with this rust growing on our oxygen tanks                 even when I knew it was coming             because you always wanted to bring me back to hurt me                you always wanted to lay me on the train tracks                to see the train…

  there in my mind         sat the empty platform           all white and divine     there's no writing on the walls       there's no where to climb            but assure me you would           that this building would be dismantling         even when we're drinking this water            wondering if we could drown         even…

Annoucement!

okay big news (actually big news for me...and since you're subscribed to me you've put up with me for thus far). i've created an actual blog for the purposes of talking about my day. I started off this blog as more a journal, but now it's more of a writing/ poem place for me. but…

  I held these translucent feelings  and pressed the mute button or the pause button        oh i can't help           please help me not to step over bounds            because where it went               no one knows         what helplessness           servitude            this is not moot            do not even refuse          do…

Thoughts of a driven person

I've been thinking a lot lately of this statement: life is full of disappointments more than  dreams coming true. And I couldn't shake myself of this one fact, this one statement which is probably more true than false. Man that's depressing, and I think most people would shy away from this fact.But could it be…

the discussions

would you dive down into ourselves with our selfish thoughts?      can I arbitrarily tell you that I can't discern          all the feelings that I might have       I don't know how many ghosts I've hidden       all the perils i've avoided          could it be known?         that I should somehow calm my…

                         please breath        let your breath rush into my deflated lungs       like the sound of a hundred hurricanes       come on damn it       come on   let the red blood cells absorb oxygen   I just want to feel alive again…

it's been a long time    since i've been delicately undone          ever fold placed down       like a strange lament         for a time we could have had      but we've already cut too many memories down      but we've already found ways to break the crown       to dethrone you from your…