the thing with me is its so hard to express my feelings at times and write it out.. theres alwasya a sense of just wanting to belong in this world just to be reconized sometimes and who i am. I never want to feel that weakness of jusst telling everybody what i feel it just how my mind set is its difficult. Also with the sense of needing someeone its so hard to say. All these feelings inside i can’t comprehend some times i feel like writeing them out then i back off saying i don’t need too. I always think of how it could be where i could be and wishing i was different. I guess it leaves me to be a complex person with different layers and different meanings

~later